Why Greatness?

November 30, 2010

Why do I want to be great in some way? Is it a God given desire or a self-centered one? I think contentment is the core issue.

I am not content with who I am. I would like to be better at a lot of things, but especially great at one thing. In studying Paul Gilbert’s guitar techniques or reading about Steve Jobs marketing prowess that unlike them, I have come to realize I’ve accomplished nothing great, at least what I would consider great.

I suppose everyone can’t be great. But I still desire to be the best in something. Is it because I thought I was never good enough as a child? I am still trying to figure this out.

I need to find a biblical answer to this.


Time Brings Perspective

September 3, 2010

I began this week lamenting my failures. I have to confess. I am not a realist. I am a pessimist as my wife insists. I see my failings easy, but it occurred to me my standard is unreachable. In all things relational my standard is Jesus. I choose to follow Him. I could never be the Father He would be to my kids, but I certainly try by His grace to grow in His characteristics and priorities.

In my last blog, there a small bit of hope at the end, not unlike some of David’s psalms. Today I have more. Here’s the perspective time brings: in the same way I don’t moan about my job because I am thankful to have one, I give thanks to God for the gifts He has given, not moan about the perceived lack of magnitude in them. Who am I to question the giver of every good and perfect gift? No one.


Writing it Down Helps

August 31, 2010

I am struggling with a few things lately. I am not the musician I want to be. I am not the dad I should be. I feel like half my life has gone by and my personal desires for me are unfulfilled. I’m not where I thought I’d be job wise, but then again, I could never answer that “where do you see yourself in 5 years” question. Maybe that is telling. I actually have had no plan so I moved to where the opportunities are. So I haven’t done my part, but God by His grace has still ordered my steps.

I have always wanted a wife and children. I am married with four kids, but like I mentioned earlier, it’s another frontier to be demonstrate my mediocrity.

In the end, I have this silly desire to be great at something and I am not. It’s frustrating to want things I can’t achieve.

I need to find contentment apart from myself. I know it should be in God. You’d think I’d be happy the creator of the universe knows me and loves me. I’m actually frustrated to be made the way I am. But the dissatisfaction serves to drive me to him, as I should not be content with me.


Good Car Advice

October 29, 2008

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Who needs pitch correction?

July 23, 2008

Well, most “artists” do these days.  It’s actually part of the signature vocal sound for young pop and rock acts.  Before you think I am being like Dr. Righteous from Mr. Roboto, I’ll be the first to admit any vocal tracks I record need them.  🙂

Why bring it up?  I was sharing my love for well crafted songs sung by tenors with Mr. Boghos via email youtube links today and I ended up here:  10CC’s The Things We Do for Love.  Pitch correction did not exist in 1977 but listening to all these parts, you’d think it did.  The vocals are spot on and a joy to listen to.  I hope you like it as much as I do.  Unfortunately, I can’t embed it due to copyright concerns.

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The Ringing Bell Explained

July 8, 2008

Derek Webb has done it again.  He is giving away his last album “The Ringing Bell”.  I have been listening to it and enjoying the Beatles/Traveling Wilbury’s feel of it.  On his “official” fan site, there is an interview with Derek about the record, which is nice because it provides context to the songs.

If you don’t have the “new” album, I recommend it.  If you have 30 minutes to listen to the interview while you work, do so, as I think you will enjoy the record even more.


Solo Flight – Last Day

June 14, 2008

I was sick yesterday and didn’t do much, including post.  Highlights of yesterday include specialized drive-thru trips to Taco Bell and Sonic for dinner.  We also watched the HSMs on Disney last night.

I took a big step outside my comfort zone this morning and took the kids to what Blurts calls the “Golden Trough” for breakfast.  We sat at the two tables nearest the restrooms and the buffet.  Much to my satisfaction, the meal was a breeze.  With that confidence, I took the kids to the pool as well.  I managed to teach the youngest how to close her mouth so she could go underwater, at least a little.   The remainder of today has been spent cleaning and watching the last episodes of “Can You Duet”.

Lesson learned:  I can take care of my kids without my lovely wife, but I don’t want to be without her.  I’ve really missed you Blurts.